Birthday Time!

Next week my baby will be turning the big 2! Makes me reflect back to when he was just born... what a big baby he was! Oh how precious it was just to hold him and watch him sleep peacefully in my arms. Now he hardly lets me hold him at all. Only when he is not feeling so well. He is getting so independent and has his own ideas of what he is and isn't going to do! I have to hide a smile or giggle so often when I am scolding him. He is quite the little funny man. I will stop rambling and share some pics with you.
Vincent's life so far... :

What are you doing to me???

"I'm a lumberjack and I'm okay..."

Look at me, I'M SWIMMING!

What... What are you doing to me? Don't touch me!

My Little Mozart!

Vincent will be 2 soon. I can hardly believe it. When you are young, you wait and wait for 13 to come. Because then you are FINALLY a teen. (Which come to find out means nothing really...) Then you can't wait to be 16, then 21... yadda, yadda, yadda.
Then you become a parent. TIME FLIES BY so fast that if you blink you miss it. The past 2 years have been the absolute best years of my life. Some people wish to go back to their childhood. No offense, mom and dad, but not me. This is awesome. I wouldn't trade this for all the money in the whole world. Not even for the temper tantrums, the stubborn attitude, the screaming, the dirty diapers, the snotty nose, etc. When he comes and gives me a kiss or a hug or asks me to read him a book, I just melt. And no matter how everything else in my life is going, he makes it all better. Looking forward to the next year.

I love my life!

Working the job I do means crazy hours for me. I'm up anywhere between 4:20am to 5am depending on the day. So, when I get off work at 3pm (yes, I know that is early but look again at what time I got up!) I am usually exhausted. I mean wore out. Then I am chasing my 21 month old around everywhere for the next 4-5 hours. I chase him around, read to him, sit with him and watch tv, feed him dinner, give him a bath, play with him on the floor, etc. That is my favorite time of the day. The time when I am so tired I could go lay down in bed and not get up until the next morning. But I am busy spending time with my little man. Oh how I love him. He is my sunshine. He is the reason I don't mind getting up in the morning. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband. But there is something about this little blessing God gave me. That He gave me the pleasure of carrying for nine months. That I felt move and it was my responsibility to take care of myself so in turn I was taking care of him. Then going through labor that I was sure when I was younger would probably kill me only to find out it was not so bad and completely worth it. My point is, though I am craving sleep so bad some days that I have to have caffeine just to keep me awake while driving home, I love this. I love my life. I love my family. I love coming home and just being with them. There is nothing better. :0)

God is testing me...

So, my test is today. What test you say? A test of patience, love, and most importantly forgiveness. I had an epiphany last Friday night. This came after a day of trials and arguments which could have been avoided. So on Friday night I was at wits end on what to do about a situation that will never go away. After praying ceaselessly and searching, God put something in my lap. Forgive your enemies. WHAT? That's what I said anyway... Why would I forgive my enemy for ALL the many things she does, just for her to do it over and over and over and over... you get the picture. Then it went one step further. PRAY for your enemies. Okay, I did a double take on this one. I can forgive a lot easier than I can pray for a woman who seems to love to create chaos and turmoil in my life. But God is telling me to pray for her. So I started with "God, I hope _____ has a good day today." That was it. I have only been doing this a week tomorrow. But the prayers are getting better. And my attitude is definitely changing. But, the enemy is coming in an hour. I hope all this week has not gone to waste. Will keep you posted. (and then go into more detail about my forgiveness epiphany!) Wish me luck!

Superwhat?

I don't know why I named this A Supermom's Diary. I don't really feel like a Supermom. That sounds like a hero. Maybe a woman flying around holding 3 babies at one time, feeding all of them. I'm not a good multi-tasker. I have seen moms that I imagined having octopus arms because they could control their 4 children at the same time. Would I be able to do that if I had another?? I definitely take help when I can get it just to do simple things. Not that I NEED it, but it is nice. But I guess you never know what you really are able to do until you have to do it.

Tired... but Blessed

It is 9:08 PM. Baby in bed, check. Dishes washed, check. Checkbook balanced, check. Me time... ahhhhh. Though sometimes it is all hectic and I think I have no time to do anything, I was thinking a few minutes ago how lucky I really am. This IS the life. How lucky am I to have a kid to run after, say "no!" about a thousand times a day, and laugh with. How lucky am I to have a wonderful husband who works all the time just to provide for US. No matter if I get annoyed at something that he does or doesn't do, he comes home to us every night. I am such a lucky woman. Or I should say, blessed. I am definitely blessed.

Life...

I sit here at 10:30, needing to go to bed... more than anything in the world, craving some much needed sleep. But I have such a hard time shutting my mind off in an instant and just laying down and sleeping. Who does that?? It has been such a busy couple of weeks. Vacation was so nice being able to spend 9 days with my baby. Who by the way is turning into such a big boy. He is getting so independent. Makes me happy, makes me sad. Oh, if I could just slow time down. Just a bit. I want to savor every moment of his precious life. Thank God for him. Okay, I am just rambling now. So very tired... Maybe this sinus medicine has finally kicked in... :0) Maybe next post will be much more insightful.

The Beginning

So, I needed something of my own, to write my thoughts, share my feelings. And even if no one reads this or follows me, I am doing this for me. And I'm very excited about it! So, this is my VERY public diary. It will no doubt be very boring at times. I apologize in advance for that.
I am working really hard to try to be all the things I need to be in my life, and do it better. At times I am so tired (from my crazy hours at work) that I would much rather sit in front of the tv than do the laundry or wash dishes, etc, etc, etc... But I have really done so much better the past few weeks. I REFUSE to be tired! And somehow muster the energy to keep going. Now being a wife is even more demanding as I am my husband's secretary/ business partner. It's definitely going to be interesting doing that, but I am excited about it. Going good so far. So, my life is busy, as is so many other moms/women I know. This is a much needed outlet for me! Stay tuned!