God is testing me...

So, my test is today. What test you say? A test of patience, love, and most importantly forgiveness. I had an epiphany last Friday night. This came after a day of trials and arguments which could have been avoided. So on Friday night I was at wits end on what to do about a situation that will never go away. After praying ceaselessly and searching, God put something in my lap. Forgive your enemies. WHAT? That's what I said anyway... Why would I forgive my enemy for ALL the many things she does, just for her to do it over and over and over and over... you get the picture. Then it went one step further. PRAY for your enemies. Okay, I did a double take on this one. I can forgive a lot easier than I can pray for a woman who seems to love to create chaos and turmoil in my life. But God is telling me to pray for her. So I started with "God, I hope _____ has a good day today." That was it. I have only been doing this a week tomorrow. But the prayers are getting better. And my attitude is definitely changing. But, the enemy is coming in an hour. I hope all this week has not gone to waste. Will keep you posted. (and then go into more detail about my forgiveness epiphany!) Wish me luck!

Superwhat?

I don't know why I named this A Supermom's Diary. I don't really feel like a Supermom. That sounds like a hero. Maybe a woman flying around holding 3 babies at one time, feeding all of them. I'm not a good multi-tasker. I have seen moms that I imagined having octopus arms because they could control their 4 children at the same time. Would I be able to do that if I had another?? I definitely take help when I can get it just to do simple things. Not that I NEED it, but it is nice. But I guess you never know what you really are able to do until you have to do it.

Tired... but Blessed

It is 9:08 PM. Baby in bed, check. Dishes washed, check. Checkbook balanced, check. Me time... ahhhhh. Though sometimes it is all hectic and I think I have no time to do anything, I was thinking a few minutes ago how lucky I really am. This IS the life. How lucky am I to have a kid to run after, say "no!" about a thousand times a day, and laugh with. How lucky am I to have a wonderful husband who works all the time just to provide for US. No matter if I get annoyed at something that he does or doesn't do, he comes home to us every night. I am such a lucky woman. Or I should say, blessed. I am definitely blessed.

Life...

I sit here at 10:30, needing to go to bed... more than anything in the world, craving some much needed sleep. But I have such a hard time shutting my mind off in an instant and just laying down and sleeping. Who does that?? It has been such a busy couple of weeks. Vacation was so nice being able to spend 9 days with my baby. Who by the way is turning into such a big boy. He is getting so independent. Makes me happy, makes me sad. Oh, if I could just slow time down. Just a bit. I want to savor every moment of his precious life. Thank God for him. Okay, I am just rambling now. So very tired... Maybe this sinus medicine has finally kicked in... :0) Maybe next post will be much more insightful.

The Beginning

So, I needed something of my own, to write my thoughts, share my feelings. And even if no one reads this or follows me, I am doing this for me. And I'm very excited about it! So, this is my VERY public diary. It will no doubt be very boring at times. I apologize in advance for that.
I am working really hard to try to be all the things I need to be in my life, and do it better. At times I am so tired (from my crazy hours at work) that I would much rather sit in front of the tv than do the laundry or wash dishes, etc, etc, etc... But I have really done so much better the past few weeks. I REFUSE to be tired! And somehow muster the energy to keep going. Now being a wife is even more demanding as I am my husband's secretary/ business partner. It's definitely going to be interesting doing that, but I am excited about it. Going good so far. So, my life is busy, as is so many other moms/women I know. This is a much needed outlet for me! Stay tuned!